(Saturday, September 20, 2008/10:43 AM)
happiness
last night was, in its way.
a small memory of its own.
but we're not done yet.
people's feelings may be dynamic but.
we won't forget.
and we don't want to forget.
i've been reading a lot of profound material recently.
it's pretty amazing how people's minds can come up with such things.
such is the work of art.
and such is why we still don't know how our own minds function.
yet there are still people who cannot love themselves for who they are.
the human mind is such a mystery.
but this profound material keeps me thinking.
and someday i will change along with wherever i want to go.
like how other people change for each other.
it is inevitable, and the me from the past will be but a written entry in this lonely corner.
but in the end, the majority will decide.
and i will sit and wait.
in this city.
there are no people.
only me.
but as i walk along the empty road.
i will see them.
and they will walk along with me.
and so will she.
the someone just for me.
last night was, in its way.
a small memory of its own.
but we're not done yet.
people's feelings may be dynamic but.
we won't forget.
and we don't want to forget.
i've been reading a lot of profound material recently.
it's pretty amazing how people's minds can come up with such things.
such is the work of art.
and such is why we still don't know how our own minds function.
yet there are still people who cannot love themselves for who they are.
the human mind is such a mystery.
but this profound material keeps me thinking.
and someday i will change along with wherever i want to go.
like how other people change for each other.
it is inevitable, and the me from the past will be but a written entry in this lonely corner.
but in the end, the majority will decide.
and i will sit and wait.
in this city.
there are no people.
only me.
but as i walk along the empty road.
i will see them.
and they will walk along with me.
and so will she.
the someone just for me.
(Saturday, September 06, 2008/7:36 PM)
normal
how fitting.
i'm not feeling myself these days.
physically. maybe.
well that's not the point anyway.
yes i've picked up something else to read.
which i am already done with.
i guess after years of seeing the same line of thing.
this comes as a bit of a shock.
i guess that's what they call alternative.
but this is not literally alternative.
though it doesn't matter anyway.
perspective matters.
majority matters.
but i am not a part of the majority perspective.
so maybe i'll accustom my eyes to this.
and like the changing perspective in and out of the suit.
i'll eventually see inside it.
so yes.
i suppose this will be all.
dinner and.
more work awaits.
so i will just leave this at peace.
and hope.
that it'll be a great story.
(nothing beats Mahoraba though.)
how fitting.
i'm not feeling myself these days.
physically. maybe.
well that's not the point anyway.
yes i've picked up something else to read.
which i am already done with.
i guess after years of seeing the same line of thing.
this comes as a bit of a shock.
i guess that's what they call alternative.
but this is not literally alternative.
though it doesn't matter anyway.
perspective matters.
majority matters.
but i am not a part of the majority perspective.
so maybe i'll accustom my eyes to this.
and like the changing perspective in and out of the suit.
i'll eventually see inside it.
so yes.
i suppose this will be all.
dinner and.
more work awaits.
so i will just leave this at peace.
and hope.
that it'll be a great story.
(nothing beats Mahoraba though.)
(Thursday, September 04, 2008/9:26 PM)
distraction
and we all know this is just for filler.
oh well.
every day i talk about the same thing.
not that i want to reach out to somebody anyway.
in the end all the remembered thoughts will still be in my head.
so i avoid all that untrustworthy stares everyone gives to people who still write.
hopefully. i guess.
can't even bother putting sinfest up.
so i guess this will be it.
oh mooncakes.
it'll be that time again oh so soon.
only this time i haven't something to write.
yet in spite.
of whatever moonlight.
there may be left in the night.
i will not say a word.
because all there is to this conversation is myself.
and we all know this is just for filler.
oh well.
every day i talk about the same thing.
not that i want to reach out to somebody anyway.
in the end all the remembered thoughts will still be in my head.
so i avoid all that untrustworthy stares everyone gives to people who still write.
hopefully. i guess.
can't even bother putting sinfest up.
so i guess this will be it.
oh mooncakes.
it'll be that time again oh so soon.
only this time i haven't something to write.
yet in spite.
of whatever moonlight.
there may be left in the night.
i will not say a word.
because all there is to this conversation is myself.
(Monday, September 01, 2008/8:02 PM)
waiting
somewhat strange.
but it's magic anyway.
ah art.
what i would give.
after all.
this beats all the half-decent stuff around.
i guess.
fall is coming soon.
the parties will all wrap up.
the people on duty will clean up.
and everything will be silent as the leaves start to fall.
love will be in the air.
or so i think.
i realise major errors in my life happen in these months.
at least the first one is over.
now for the rest to hunt me down.
wait what am i saying.
well anyway.
hopefully things will go well from here.
and i'll get to sit back and enjoy life.
after all, all-time studying is not really my thing.
so hopefully.
please fall.
come around with wonderful things.
summer was oh-so disappointing.
but within the wreck.
i guess the most valuable treasure is inside.
but i'll be looking forward to the next season anyway.
after all i've already given up on this one.
just a pearl or two satisfies me for today.
now to start preparing.
preparing for the road ahead.
and i'll be there to watch the leaves fall.
somewhat strange.
but it's magic anyway.
ah art.
what i would give.
after all.
this beats all the half-decent stuff around.
i guess.
fall is coming soon.
the parties will all wrap up.
the people on duty will clean up.
and everything will be silent as the leaves start to fall.
love will be in the air.
or so i think.
i realise major errors in my life happen in these months.
at least the first one is over.
now for the rest to hunt me down.
wait what am i saying.
well anyway.
hopefully things will go well from here.
and i'll get to sit back and enjoy life.
after all, all-time studying is not really my thing.
so hopefully.
please fall.
come around with wonderful things.
summer was oh-so disappointing.
but within the wreck.
i guess the most valuable treasure is inside.
but i'll be looking forward to the next season anyway.
after all i've already given up on this one.
just a pearl or two satisfies me for today.
now to start preparing.
preparing for the road ahead.
and i'll be there to watch the leaves fall.